bekah brunstetter
Bekah Brunstetter I care deeply. About a lot of things. Like really, really deep. Ow
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January 7th, 2020 by Bekah Brunstetter

Today, on A Life Lived With Gummy Bears: why put these words on a product, especially when there is technically no amount of gummy bears that is RIGHT to ingest, so how could there be an amount of gummy bears that is WRONG? Why not instead just ‘Regular size’ or ‘Size’ or ‘to be eaten during turbulence’ or ‘to be eaten alone so that your adult peers never learn that left to your own devices, you could sit and house an entire Share Size bag of gummy bears like they were chips’

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not mantra

January 5th, 2020 by Bekah Brunstetter

My mantra has pretty much always been I do not have a mantra, I am not a person who does mantras, but recently, a mantra has developed in my head on its own, and so, I think I’ll let it stay, as it’s been incredibly helpful.

It is simply: My faith is greater than my anxiety. My faith is greater than my anxiety. Is this a mantra? I think this is a mantra. I guess I have a mantra, now. MY FAITH IS GREATER THAN MY ANXIETY. ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO SHOUT MANTRAS OR WHISPER THEM? I GUESS MINE IS SHOUTED THROUGH THE BACKS OF MY EYES, MY FAITH IS GREATER THAN MY ANXIETYYYYYYY

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why to Instagram

January 3rd, 2020 by Bekah Brunstetter

Instagram is dumb and a time suck and also threatens to make you feel sad about your life for no reason, but then also sometimes it captures these beautiful little bits of humanity. I just recently figured out how to ‘story’ and ‘filter’ and whatever the thing is when there’s a thing on your head that moves, is that also a filter? Is it a quiz? Over Christmas, everyone was doing which Disney character are you? Obviously I was Dory. It was silly and all in good fun until ZELDA WILLIAMS, ROBIN WILLIAMS’ DAUGHTER DID THE FILTER STORY QUIZ, AND GOT THE GENIE, who was of course voiced by her Dad. I didn’t realize how much I loved or missed Robin Williams until I saw his daughter laugh just like him.

Maybe instagram is a dumb, and a time suck, and can make you sad for no reason, and makes you feel like every one else in the world is eating and living and dressing better than you, but also: maybe it’s good at exposing and sharing these tiny moments of Joy.

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with, in fact, a bang

January 1st, 2020 by Bekah Brunstetter

Starting 2020 off right with a 7 AM flight to NYC for a Notebook workshop and SETTING OFF THE TSA METAL DETECTOR WITH MY FERTILITY GODDESS GOOD LUCK CHARM NECKLACE, and then receiving my first ever FULL BODY PAT DOWN.

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Looking Back

December 30th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

I was scrolling back through my year, by which I mean pictures on my phone, in preparation for some sort of 2019 Top 9 type post (mine usually become more like Top 81, as I can never pick) and I realized that I was spending much more mental energy obsessing over how thin or not thin I was in the pictures, than I was reveling in my accomplishments / adventures. (The above picture, from Jan 2019, makes me ANGRY, because I think I felt fat? But I am way more cupcake-y, even since then.) Two years of fertility treatments and failed pregnancies and baking and eating and drinking ALL OF MY FEELINGS means I have basically gained the amount of weight one gains when one actually has a baby, yet I currently have no baby to show for it. My jeans are stacked like unread books in my closet. I don’t even look at them anymore. I should be easy on my myself, but it’s hard. I spent my delicate formative years very overweight and hating myself for it, and then MORE formative years jogging and counting and spinning and restricting. It’s hard for me to just accept that my body has changed and that it’s not the end of the world. But, also, it’s not as hard and I thought it might be? Because I know it doesn’t matter as much as I once thought it did. Because I don’t have the space to care? Because I’m basically happy, and well-fed? Because there is a time to worry about how much one’s gut cupcakes when one sits down, and then there is a time for self-care, for self-kindness, for Doritos, for mercy.

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How Great thou Art

December 28th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

How Great Thou Art came on my Spotify shuffle this AM, specifically the Carrie Underwood / Vince Gill version. My top 2019 songs are, once again, 40 percent country covers of baptist hymns and 56 percent Drake and Lizzo and Billie Eilish because THAT JUST MAKES SENSE. This hymn always has a way of finding me exactly when I need to hear it. It’s a humbling song that requires you to admit that you are so not in control:

O Lord, my God, when I in awesome wonder
Consider all the worlds Thy Hands have made
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder
Thy power throughout the universe displayed

Sometimes I very much want to scream at God, I AM POWERLESS. I HAVE NO CONTROL. EVERYTHING IS UP TO YOU. But then this hymn comes on and instead, the same words, new perspective, with calm:

I am powerless.

I have no control.

Everything is up to you.

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OH COME LET ME ADORE THEM

December 26th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

Another superb Christmas with Morrison’s family in Olympia, Washington, a waterside fairyland full of hyped up children, Christmas carbs and stunning 4 PM sunsets. I will present my favorite moments / pictures using a very difficult, hi-tech blog feature called ‘media gallery’ which it honestly just took me 27 minutes to figure out how to do.

Christmas caroling at the Marina, complete with candles, hot cider and cookies, and 40 GROUP CAROLS INCLUDING CAROL OF THE BELLS:

Christmas morning itself, obviously:

DISCOVERING THE TRUE STORY:

Watching Morrison just be great at everything:

Q time with my in-law life partners:

And my most favorite, hope-giving, light restoring sunset, TAKEN AT 4:45 PM.

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care of creatures

December 24th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter
black and white engrave isolated hippo illustration art

I interrupt the regularly scheduled Christmas related content to flag two dreams I’ve had recently:

ONE. I had a giant pet black hippo who could stand on his hind legs. When we weren’t making pasta together, he would stand, tap on his back with his front leg, motioning for me to hop on, and I would attach myself like a back-pack and he would run around the industrial sized kitchen and oh how we laughed and laughed and then made pasta for some reason.

TWO. I had a beautiful black dragon that I kept in the bathtub. From far away it just looked like your regular black bathtub dragon. But get closer, and his neck is neon orange and green and blue, and I sat next to him, stroking his neck, and he purred.

Theories:

ONE. I have heard I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas 9 too many times this year

TWO. My brain is trying to prepare for terrifying beautiful creatures that will MAYBE SOON BE IN MY CARE

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re: why there’s a cast iron in my carry-on

December 22nd, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

I mean not really, but I am literally ALIVE this holiday to season to make these for Morrison’s family come Christmas morning.

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News News News

December 20th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter
  1. Mo has a very incredible Mo-stache right now

2. Our friend Sebastian just opened up an awesome new recording studio in Highland Park, and Morrison’s D&D Podcast, the Magic Quest Boys of Dragontown, did their first live show to christen it, featuring live music, mystical stone tablets and a man that thinks he’s snake, and it was incredible. All of the players are actors, so the character / voice work is on POINT.

3. I now rate my understanding of D&D at a 6 out of 10, where as a mere few days ago, I was at a 2, which is deeply unacceptable if you are a person who is married to Mo-stache

4. PEEP SIXTY25 FOR ALL OF YOUR EAST LA RECORDING NEEDS! And you can find Magic Quest Boys on Spotify, itunes, or playing on a soft loop in the thick hearty channel between Morrison’s brain and heart.

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