bekah brunstetter
Bekah Brunstetter I care deeply. About a lot of things. Like really, really deep. Ow
playwright in brooklyn, NY

thinking ahead

January 19th, 2020 by Bekah Brunstetter

It’s extra warm in LA this morning and the air has that feeling of renewal and Spring so it’s definitely time to start planning things like Easter Brunch, and asking big questions like what Closet will I clean this Spring, and will it make me spiral under the weight of unnecessary Things, wasted money and time, And what Promises will I make to myself and to God this Spring, and what restrictions will I pretend to engage in for three days and how many Hills will we walk up and how many tacos will we eat and what words will I write Outside and will the world get better or worse, but most of all, WILL I MAKE A LAMB CAKE? IS THIS THE YEAR? AND WILL IT LOOK LIKE THIS?

OR PROBABLY THIS?

MY MONEY IS ON THE LATTER

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why to Instagram

January 3rd, 2020 by Bekah Brunstetter

Instagram is dumb and a time suck and also threatens to make you feel sad about your life for no reason, but then also sometimes it captures these beautiful little bits of humanity. I just recently figured out how to ‘story’ and ‘filter’ and whatever the thing is when there’s a thing on your head that moves, is that also a filter? Is it a quiz? Over Christmas, everyone was doing which Disney character are you? Obviously I was Dory. It was silly and all in good fun until ZELDA WILLIAMS, ROBIN WILLIAMS’ DAUGHTER DID THE FILTER STORY QUIZ, AND GOT THE GENIE, who was of course voiced by her Dad. I didn’t realize how much I loved or missed Robin Williams until I saw his daughter laugh just like him.

Maybe instagram is a dumb, and a time suck, and can make you sad for no reason, and makes you feel like every one else in the world is eating and living and dressing better than you, but also: maybe it’s good at exposing and sharing these tiny moments of Joy.

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with, in fact, a bang

January 1st, 2020 by Bekah Brunstetter

Starting 2020 off right with a 7 AM flight to NYC for a Notebook workshop and SETTING OFF THE TSA METAL DETECTOR WITH MY FERTILITY GODDESS GOOD LUCK CHARM NECKLACE, and then receiving my first ever FULL BODY PAT DOWN.

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Looking Back

December 30th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

I was scrolling back through my year, by which I mean pictures on my phone, in preparation for some sort of 2019 Top 9 type post (mine usually become more like Top 81, as I can never pick) and I realized that I was spending much more mental energy obsessing over how thin or not thin I was in the pictures, than I was reveling in my accomplishments / adventures. (The above picture, from Jan 2019, makes me ANGRY, because I think I felt fat? But I am way more cupcake-y, even since then.) Two years of fertility treatments and failed pregnancies and baking and eating and drinking ALL OF MY FEELINGS means I have basically gained the amount of weight one gains when one actually has a baby, yet I currently have no baby to show for it. My jeans are stacked like unread books in my closet. I don’t even look at them anymore. I should be easy on my myself, but it’s hard. I spent my delicate formative years very overweight and hating myself for it, and then MORE formative years jogging and counting and spinning and restricting. It’s hard for me to just accept that my body has changed and that it’s not the end of the world. But, also, it’s not as hard and I thought it might be? Because I know it doesn’t matter as much as I once thought it did. Because I don’t have the space to care? Because I’m basically happy, and well-fed? Because there is a time to worry about how much one’s gut cupcakes when one sits down, and then there is a time for self-care, for self-kindness, for Doritos, for mercy.

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OH COME LET ME ADORE THEM

December 26th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

Another superb Christmas with Morrison’s family in Olympia, Washington, a waterside fairyland full of hyped up children, Christmas carbs and stunning 4 PM sunsets. I will present my favorite moments / pictures using a very difficult, hi-tech blog feature called ‘media gallery’ which it honestly just took me 27 minutes to figure out how to do.

Christmas caroling at the Marina, complete with candles, hot cider and cookies, and 40 GROUP CAROLS INCLUDING CAROL OF THE BELLS:

Christmas morning itself, obviously:

DISCOVERING THE TRUE STORY:

Watching Morrison just be great at everything:

Q time with my in-law life partners:

And my most favorite, hope-giving, light restoring sunset, TAKEN AT 4:45 PM.

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re: why there’s a cast iron in my carry-on

December 22nd, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

I mean not really, but I am literally ALIVE this holiday to season to make these for Morrison’s family come Christmas morning.

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News News News

December 20th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter
  1. Mo has a very incredible Mo-stache right now

2. Our friend Sebastian just opened up an awesome new recording studio in Highland Park, and Morrison’s D&D Podcast, the Magic Quest Boys of Dragontown, did their first live show to christen it, featuring live music, mystical stone tablets and a man that thinks he’s snake, and it was incredible. All of the players are actors, so the character / voice work is on POINT.

3. I now rate my understanding of D&D at a 6 out of 10, where as a mere few days ago, I was at a 2, which is deeply unacceptable if you are a person who is married to Mo-stache

4. PEEP SIXTY25 FOR ALL OF YOUR EAST LA RECORDING NEEDS! And you can find Magic Quest Boys on Spotify, itunes, or playing on a soft loop in the thick hearty channel between Morrison’s brain and heart.

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NAILS OF MY SOUL

December 16th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

If I were to name the color of the inside of my heart right now EXACTLY, it would be:

Dark of Black, White of Optimism, Gray of the Middle, POLKA DOT ADORABLE TRYING

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Me, and how I’m Crazy

December 14th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

I’m taking a break through the holidays from worrying and obsessing about getting pregnant, or at least this is what I’m telling myself, if not shouting at myself. It mostly involves frantic compartmentalization, which makes me very fun at parties. I was at a Christmas party this other night, and a lovely woman who I know socially but not super well, arrived, and my brain immediately did this, in quick succession:

  • There is a new round glow to her face
  • Why is she wearing a baggy sweater
  • IS THAT A SLIGHT BULGE I SEE BENEATH HER SWEATER
  • IT IS, IT IS A BULGE
  • THIS BITCH IS PREGNANT
  • THE ENEMY IS UPON US
  • RUN BEKAH RUN
  • RUN TOWARDS THE NEAREST EXIT
  • DON’T START CRYING UNTIL YOU REACH YOUR CAR
  • DON’T LET ANYONE SEE IN YOUR EYES EVERYTHING THAT JUST HAPPENED
  • PRETEND NONE OF IT HAPPENED
  • RESTORE RESTORE RESTORE
  • AVOID AVOID AVOID
  • CHUG WINE LIKE THERE’S NO TOMORROW AND NO HUMANS GROWING INSIDE OF YOU BECAUSE THERE ARE NOT

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IT’S AN EGGNOG LIFE FOR ME

December 12th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

IT’S A (LITE) EGGNOG LIFE FOR ME

INSTEAD OF DRINKING COFFEE AND / OR WATER LIKE A REGULAR PERSON TO EITHER HYDRATE OR CAFFEINATE MYSELF I DRINK THIS

WHICH IS EXACTLY LIKE SLURPING DOWN A CUP FULL OF CHRISTMAS FROSTING THAT’S BEEN LEFT OUT IN THE SUN

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