bekah brunstetter
Bekah Brunstetter I care deeply. About a lot of things. Like really, really deep. Ow
playwright in brooklyn, NY

Rage

November 20th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

I feel like Rage doesn’t suit me. It’s not my natural or go-to state. The closest thing I think I’ve felt in the past is frustration, which is a gateway drug to Rage, the Diet Coke of Rage, Rage’s short friend from college who she sees Sometimes, and Wow, I could make those metaphors all day. But lately I feel so much of it, and it’s like my body and brain and heart don’t know how to process it because it’s so New. It gets Big and Hot and Mean but when it comes out, it’s a cute sputter, it’s a Bee trapped in a cupcake case, buzzing around pointlessly, stinging the glass.

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Jesus in Maryland

November 18th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

I’m in Olney, Maryland for the week to workshop Teen Mary Magdalene hearts Teen Jesus musical at the Olney Theater Center, which is very exciting and career and work and play development and yay but MOST IMPORTANTLY, I AM IN MY FAVORITE WEATHER DURING MY FAVORITE MONTH. Growing up, we went to my grandparents’ in Davidsonville, Maryland every year for Thanksgiving, and its cloudiness, it’s very specific sort of cozy cold, are things I long for whenever it turns November. I can’t believe this is my view, all week.

IF YOU NEED ME I’LL BE ROLLING AROUND IN LEAVES / DANGLING FROM LAMPPOST

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But have you tried

November 14th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

The other day at my acupuncturist, and other words that LA people start sentences with, my gal Dr. Hong removed the needles from my face, and suddenly, without warning or explanation, started to light me on fire. Turns out it’s called Moxa, it’s an ancient Chinese practice whose ‘intention is to warm and invigorate the flow of Qi in the body and dispel certain pathogenic influences.‘ Tiny pods of mugwort are burnt around the body to increase circulation and blood flow and something with Qi. In simpler terms, she lit me with 100 tiny fires, some on my toes, some on my stomach, and it was lovely, and for the rest of the day, Morrison wouldn’t come near me because he said I smelled like Smoked Salmon. I don’t know what it did to my Qi, or if I even have Qi, because somedays, I feel like I left my Qi somewhere, took it off, put it in the wash, forgot to dry it, and now it’s molding there in the machine. But maybe, actually, my Qi is now pulsing, flowing, creating life, or at least okayness, which somedays, is Life.

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COMING SOON TO MY LOWER BODY NEAR YOU

November 10th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

It is requiring every fiber of my rational adult being to not order these Christmas leggings

NO WAIT YEAH, I JUST ORDERED THEM

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Fire Season

November 2nd, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

I’ve now lived in LA long enough to be aware of Fire Season, and of the fact that it’s getting worse and worse. (I’ve been so lucky so far to not have any of the fires come close to where I live, KNOCK ON ALL OF THE FLAMMABLE WOOD EVER.) Suddenly there’s surreal images of familiar places on fire and cars stuck in traffic next to it, as if it’s not even there. You wake up with a sore throat for no reason. But the worst part of all: at the beginning, before you’ve checked your phone to see that everything is now Fire, you go outside smell Campfire, and it warms you and makes you smile, makes you feel cozy and want to grab a guitar or at least a marshmallow, AND THEN YOU REALIZE IT’S THE SMELL OF SOMEONE’S HOUSE BURNING, and you feel terrible, and it’s a gutting reminder of the impermanence of things, and you go back inside and look at all of your Things and Things and Things, and imagine it all on fire, and yourself in the middle of it.

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AM I CALM YET?

October 21st, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter
  • Does 10 minute long guided meditation; finds Calm
  • Is very proud of oneself
  • immediately starts to spiral with worry
  • then starts to spiral more with worry that the guided meditation didn’t ‘work’
  • IS 100% NO LONGER CALM
  • GOOGLES SAFE LEGAL LOBOTOMY

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Veinity

October 17th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

Me / Nurse: Hey veins! How you livin’?

Veins: SMALL

Me / Nurse: Cool, that’s cool, we’re just gonna need some blood real quick!

Veins: NO

Me / Nurse: But blood contains vital information and this is literally our only way to get it?

Veins: DON’T CARE

Me / Nurse: Wait, where’re you going?

Veins: BYE

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INFO DUMP

October 15th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

In retrospect, September and October 2019 will forever be known as my Country Music period, during which I watched all 16.5 hours of Ken Burn’s documentary and was so in love with it that I wanted to live my life inside of it, so much that AS SOON AS I FINISHED IT, I STARTED IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I love its tiny insights into history, humanity, I love the struggles of its characters and how they fall in and out of love with each other and write songs about it that I’ve spent my life listening to, unaware of the brawls and longings that inspired them. I’ve learned so much, and instead of wandering around the house shouting at Morrison or Cracker HEY, DID YOU KNOW? (which I will definitely keep doing) I’m just going to leave a list of my favorite things, here.

DID YOU KNOW?

  • The Banjo came from Africa, the Fiddle came from Irish and Scotland; early country music is defined by racial tension between black people and white people, but also, they were constantly using each other’s music as if the tension didn’t even exist
  • Merle Haggard was in San Quentin prison serving a 17 year sentence for armed robbery and prison escape when Johnny Cash played a show there. The show inspired Merle to quit to being a ne’er do well, get out of prison early for good behavior, and pursue music
  • Johnny Cash’s song A Boy Named Sue is based on a Shel Silverstein poem
  • Reba Mcentire was a prize winning barrel horse racer before she was discovered singing the Star Spangled Banner at a Rodeo
  • Willie Nelson wrote Patsy Cline’s Crazy. He had a lot of success as a songwriter, but people thought his voice was weird, not country enough. After years of rejection, he moved back home to Texas, did his own thing for his own people, and eventually became country music’s BIGGEST EVER STAR.
  • Garth Brooks was the first country musician to play shows like a rock star. In 1993, he played Texas stadium, which fit 40 thousand people. IT SOLD OUT IN 93 MINUTES.
  • Dolly Parton’s husband worked in asphalt before he retired. He has only been to ONE of her shows, ever. Early in their marriage, after attending a red carpet event with her, he said honey, I want you to have everything that you want, but please never make me go to one of those ever again. (This was not in the doc, this I discovered in an article about Dolly’s marriage, after becoming obsessed with Dolly’s marriage, because of the doc)
  • Vince Gill is the sweetest most gentlest man in history
  • Vince Gill is married to Amy Grant
  • WHAT IS THAT MARRIAGE LIKE
  • WILL THEY ADOPT ME

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Cool Story

October 13th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

Morrison got me a Chance the Rapper ‘3’ hat for my birthday this year. Chance wears the hat to represent the Holy Trinity, and also the trinity that is he, his wife and his daughter. Morrison got it for me because I do love Chance, and Chances, and also because we’re both hoping that in terms of babymaking, THIRD TIME IS THE CHARM. Cut to my parents’ visit, we spent much time in the sun, and my Dad didn’t bring a hat, so he ended up rolling around Malibu like this:

AND THE OCCASIONAL LOOKS HE GOT AS AN OLD(ER) (NOT ACTUALLY OLD) WHITE DUDE RAP FAN WERE AMAZING. C’MON PPL, GIVE THE MAN A CHANCE (JOKE)

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Cute Parents

October 5th, 2019 by Bekah Brunstetter

I know slash hope that one day our kids will call us Cute, and it will feel dismissive, and I will be like, HOW DARE YOU, I AM NOT CUTE, I CREATED YOU, YOU ARE ON EARTH BECAUSE OF ME, I GAVE YOU LIFE, NOTHING ABOUT THIS IS ‘CUTE’

BUT ALSO LOOK AT MY CUTE PARENTS

Who, for the record, rallied after a 14 hour cross country travel day to party at Ingrid’s show at The Wiltern last night. ‘CUTE!’

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