bekah brunstetter
Bekah Brunstetter I care deeply. About a lot of things. Like really, really deep. Ow
playwright in brooklyn, NY

everything will be fine everything will be fine

November 10th, 2016 by Bekah Brunstetter

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election response #6,378,892

November 9th, 2016 by Bekah Brunstetter

To those who are joyous today, I understand that you are frustrated, disenfranchised, desperate for work, for a change that feels real, trying to feed your families, clinging to what you’ve been taught is right, if not a little ignorant as to how to actually change your circumstances. I am, too. I understand the way the government works just about as much as a I get how cars run or electricity happens. I do not have a brain for understanding complex systems. I have a creative, empathic brain that loves humans, good ones and bad ones too, that is constantly questioning why they do what they do. I have built a whole life, and livelihood, around these questions. This sort of brain that God gave me is exactly why I hope that you 1.) get the life that you want for you and your family, and the means with which to give them that life and 2.) that you do so WITHOUT condoning sexual assault of women, without apathy and anger towards those who don’t love exactly like you do, who aren’t from exactly where you’re from.  Obama said it this morning. We’re Americans before we’re Republicans or Democrats. But even before that, we are people.

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THIS, INSTEAD

November 8th, 2016 by Bekah Brunstetter

I SUSPECT SOMETHING HUGE IS HAPPENING TODAY, BUT INSTEAD OF OBSESSING OVER IT OR TALKING ABOUT IT BECAUSE I MEAN WHAT IS THERE THAT’S LEFT TO SAY, LET’S ALL JUST TAKE DEEP BREATHS AND LOOK AT THIS PICTURE THAT MY COUSIN JUST SENT ME OF ME IN A BEARD AND MORRISON IN CAT EARS

INNNNNNNNN

OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

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A PICTURE OF LIES

May 2nd, 2016 by Bekah Brunstetter

Guess what you guys, I LIVE BY THE BEACH TECHNICALLY! (Truth.) And so today, my friend and I went and stood on it.

I call this picture: QUICK TAKE A PICTURE OF ME LOOKING SUPER RELAXED ON THE BEACH AND LAUGHING AT HOW SILLY IT ALL IS WHILE MEANWHILE IN THE INSIDE OF MY HEAD IS EXPLODING WITH ALL OF THE OTHER THINGS I’M SUPPOSED TO BE DOING!

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change your place / change your mind

April 7th, 2016 by Bekah Brunstetter

I’ve gone and escaped to up to Ojai for a few days to clear my head and to try and fix a play that’s be eluding me.  Ojai is a beauty of a valley just 90 minutes north of LA. Orange trees and hippies stores and pensive hikes. Currently the creative part of my brain feels like a large hunk of a very old rice krispie treat. Thick and sticky and slow and sweet.  To combat this stickiness, you sometimes  literally have to LEAVE. You just have to GO. Somewhere you’ve never been. Or some new part of a place you’ve already been. Ideally somewhere you can drive to, so that’s there’s not the stress /expense of DEATH AIR TRAVEL. But somewhere far enough where you should probably stay overnight and stare at a strange ceiling and take in the silence of the strange room. The very act of seeing something you’ve never seen before — finding it, seeing it on your own, taking it in, sheds the marshmallow layer of the brain that grows with routine, accumulates on its surface like rust. New places trigger questions and thought. NONE OF THIS IS TO SAY that I have fixed my  play quite yet, but I DID ponder the creation story and do some deep thinking about what snakes are for. SUCCESS (?) (!)

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Everything is Copy

March 23rd, 2016 by Bekah Brunstetter

As revealed in the VERY FANTASTIC GO WATCH IT THIS SECOND new HBO documentary on Nora Ephron, Nora’s mother used to tell her that everything is copy. Meaning: everything that happens to you, no matter how devastating or terrible: it is a story that is yours to tell. And if you tell it, you control the laugh. Isn’t that brilliant? If you put yourself in front of your own angst, your own tragedy, get ahead of it, announce it in your own way — it no longer controls you. Among the 900 other fascinating things about this resplendent woman, the doc (made by her son, after her sudden death from leukemia at 71 in 2012) hits home how, after making a career out of writing movies and books and essays about her personal life, with scathing honesty — she managed to make her death private. She told no one except for immediate family that she was dying. When she could have capitalized on her own illness, her own confrontation of death, she kept it to herself — so that in a way, she could control it. Isn’t that amazing? An old friend interviewed for the movie asserts that ‘Nora was not a genius.’ But he meant it as a compliment. If she were a genius, she would not have been as human and accessible as she was. I have often worried that I’m not a genius.  Or rather, I very much know that I’m not. But thanks to Nora, I officially embrace this. If being a not genius means pulling people closer and closer towards you with the truth that you tell about how sad and wonderful and insane it is to be alive at all,  then I am all in.

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you sometimes get what you think you want

October 22nd, 2015 by Bekah Brunstetter

This time last year, and perhaps well, most to all of the years, I was panicking and overworked and trying to do 900 things. But I kind of enjoy that feeling of absurd productivity and exhaustion, is that bad?  It makes me feel relevant. Like I am maximizing on my minutes?But I fantasized about having a day with nothing to do.  And now find myself with something I never thought I would have again, LESS COMMITMENTS, MORE TIME. Like little pockets of it to practice the piano and read BOOKS. But I  don’t know what to fully do with it the Time. I worry about wasting it. Last night I dreamt I was in a concert hall to see a symphony. As they played, water swelled underneath them until they were floating, and then the water took over the whole space until I was also floating, then the pond became a wave pool, then a tsunami, but a gentle kind that didn’t threaten to kill as we suddenly all had snorkels and oxygen tanks. We just keep listening to the star violinist who was now a fish type person. We weren’t scared, we just swam and heard, undulated. I think myself is telling myself to just move through the time, that it doesn’t have to be thrilling or terrifying or even important, that it can just be time spent listening.

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millennials

October 14th, 2015 by Bekah Brunstetter

Hi, I am now officially old enough to be annoyed by those younger than me and pass judgement on them and pretend I’m happy to be older / wiser, while secretly also doing a lot of the things they do and also desperately wishing I could still eat bread and drink more than a glass of wine and not wake up with a headache. Hi! Overheard this morning while waiting for my eleven dollar coffee which I can totally afford because I’m old, dammit:

Young barista: Hey did you know that facetious is –

Other young barista (RAPIDLY INTERRUPTING): IS THE ONLY WORD WITH ALL OF THE VOWELS IN ORDER A-E-I-O-U.

Young barista: Yeah.

Beat.

Young Barista: I don’t know what facetious means.

Other young barista: Yeah, me neither.

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I <3 OUTSIDE.

August 22nd, 2015 by Bekah Brunstetter

I wanna live my life outside. This is a late discovery. I used to hide inside reading Babysitter’s Club until my parents literally had to lock me out of the house until I’d ridden my bike around the neighborhood. And even THEN, I would sit under the swing set in the backyard and play circus, which, from what I recall, just involved sitting underneath the swing set in the backyard, and imagining a circus happening all around me.

But in my adult life, I LOVE OUTSIDE.  It’s gorgeous and massive and calm and here for us to play on and explore like a grown up swing set but sturdier most of the time. Today Julien and I hiked the Stawamus Peak Chief and if I’m being real it was more of a TWO MILE TOTALLY UPHILL CLIMB.

I nearly died 9 times partially because of a back injury from something pathetic  like lifting something and then like, standing out of a chair too fast, but a bunch of terrifying chains / ladders / stairs / trees / stones / very fast children later:

By far the highest I have ever climbed. The Chief stands 2,000 feet over Squamish, so I’m just going to tell myself I did that.

We rewarded ourselves with something not found in nature but Godly, just the same.

And props to these kids who ALSO <3 the outside and also taking money from tourists who are dying of thirst who thought the hike was 90 minutes ROUND TRIP NOT ONE WAY.

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some news is news

July 31st, 2015 by Bekah Brunstetter

I’m not sure if you’ve been following the progression of this piece of plane found off an island near Madagascar, but being that I must understand all and every plane crash, I of course have. I’ve been checking in each morning with a sick longing for certainty that this part indeed belonged to the lost Malaysian plane, while trying not to imagine a piece of one of the four planes I’m about to board over the next few weeks bobbing off the coast of Africa, forgotten and barnacled.  Here’s what has been the progression of the news:

- Hey we found a piece of a plane! Maybe it’s from that lost plane!

- Okay so we looked at it, and we have determined that yes, it is a piece of a plane, and also, there is a missing plane.

- Okay so we looked at it even more, and now we can say with certainty that it is maybe part of that plane.

- Okay guys, it is definitely maybe part of that plane.

- HEY GUESS WHAT HUGE NEWS! We are 100 percent certain that it is definitely possible that it’s part of that plane!

- HEY EVEN HUGER NEWS ARE YOU SITTING DOWN? WE ARE NOW ABSOLUTELY SURE WITH CERTAINTY THAT IT IS DEFINITELY MAYBE POSITIVELY PART OF THAT PLANNNNEEEEE BUT MAYBE!

It is maddening. More than anything, I want peace and answers for the families, who have now been waiting some 500 days for news. I hope they get this.

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